Full Moon in Cardinal Aries ~ Conjunct Uranus, the Rebel

 

Dearest Moonlings!

We are in the season of change.  The eclipses in September worked upon us in many varied ways – opening new doors, closing others, bringing about surprises, births, deaths, unions and separations.

Many of us have been pushed outside the box of our comfort zone.  Many of us are exhausted and just looking for some peace and quiet from all this noise, all this insanity, all these layers of challenging issues that we face as individuals and as a global community.

In October, the flavor of Fall is all around us; the daylight fading a little sooner, the air getting chillier, the wind blowing leaves and blowing our thoughts toward coffee shops and scarves and comfort food and warmth.

This year, we have the added anticipation of November’s U.S. presidential election.  Tensions are high, egos are ignited, nerves are shot and patience is thin.  We are faced with one of the most absurd political campaigns in history, and the voices calling for change are murmuring louder and louder, like a deep underground river that is rising and rising, preparing to dismantle every system of injustice.

This month’s Full Moon is exact on Saturday, October 15th, at 9:23 pm PDT.  La Luna reveals her fullness to us in the sign of Aries, the Ram.  The Sun in Libra is highlighting the area in our lives that really strives for balance and harmony, as well as beauty and connection.  Jupiter began his year-long journey in Libra on September 9th, and he is EXPANDING and supporting and enhancing that area of our lives because that is the generous nature of Jupiter.

Aries is Libra’s opposite, and he brings the attention back to the “self” and to accomplishment.  Aries is driven, masculine and a total powerhouse.  He is ruled by Mars, whereas Libra is ruled by Venus.  Aries is the pioneer, the leader, the fire-starter.  Libra seeks relationship, refinement and romance. As Cardinal signs, Libra and Aries are both generators, initiators, trend-setters and very ambitious.

Uranus (retrograde in Aries and conjunct the Full Moon) gives an added dimension of rebellion and wildness to this month’s astrology.  Uranus represents liberation, equality, and the higher mind.  Uranus has no problem using the power of destruction to “level the playing field.”  If it isn’t working well for the good of all, let’s break it apart and build it over again in a new way!  This is the mindset of Uranus.

Uranus remains retrograde in Aries until December 29th of this year, which is also the New Moon.  This feels like a very special introduction to 2017!

When the planet of transcendence and higher mind turns direct at 20° Aries, we might experience some closure or some continuing of things that were happening back in April of this year, when Uranus was last transiting through 20-21° Aries.  Pay attention to this part of your chart; which house does Aries rule for you, and do you have planets or significant aspects around 20° Aries?  You might be experiencing some monumental shifts in personal areas of your life, and we are bound to see this reflected in the larger landscape of global relations and leadership.

Aside from this Saturday’s Full Moon, we can look forward to Venus, the planet of beauty and pleasure, moving into Sagittarius for almost a month of frolicky fun!  Venus enters the sign of the Archer at 12:01 am PDT, this Tuesday October 18th. This is a lovely combination, as Jupiter is the ruler of adventurous Sag, and no one makes Venus shine brighter than the benevolent Jupiter.  The energies of Jupiter and Venus are quite harmonious and bestow good fortune.  Jupiter spending a year in Libra, who is ruled by Venus, is another, longer-term formation of the angelic Venus-Jupiter connection.

May the blessing of this Full Moon bestow you with the courage and the fortitude needed during times of change!  May you hold your loved ones close, and may you also hold your sweet self with compassion for this human journey.  May you allow your own consciousness to be the change so needed in the world.

Blessings and Light!

Namaste.

 

 

 

 

 

Cultivating Light, pt.2

I’m back on the island for the weekend.  Right now, my only company is my friend’s African-Grey parrot, who I will call Sam.  Sam and I have a very sweet relationship.  Except for that one time last Sunday when she bit me.  That has never happened before and it will never happen again.  I was not pleased about having a bloody, throbbing finger (although it was my fault for trying to pet her cute little head).  I went to bed resentful of her rude behavior and I didn’t chat with her much the following morning.  She is very sensitive to vibes and she quickly caught on that I was ignoring her.  I wasn’t trying to punish her; I just wasn’t ready to talk yet.  My feelings were hurt.

Throughout the day, she kept upping her game with me, saying things like “good morning!” and “how are you?” quite often.  She even started saying “later gater” a lot in this cute robotic voice because she heard me laugh after she tried it out.  My friend has owned Sam for almost 30 years, since she was a 6-month old babe.  He knows her really, really well and is very in tune with her moods and what she is communicating.  He said it was good that I was giving her the silent-treatment to reinstate my dominance.  So I just waited until I was over being mad, and then I was able to re-engage with Sam without a grudge.  She won me back when she said “Night-night, sweetheart” in a loving, lilting voice.  I laughed fully and my heart felt soft and glowing. I asked her that we instate a mutual “no biting each other” agreement, and we moved on.

I wish it was so easy with people!  Specifically, I wish it was so easy with lovers.

I wish I could be more Zen about the whole Sex thing.

I wish my heart wasn’t in my vagina.  I wish I could love “casually” without getting too “attached.”

I wish feeling triggered or hurt wasn’t part of my experience.  (No bad feelings, please!  They are so inconvenient!)

And I don’t wish these things because I think it would make me a better person or a cooler person, or even a more desirable woman.  I wish these things because it would be less painful for ME!

However, to my utter amazement, I am finding that I can’t turn away from love anymore.  I can’t turn the lights off and go back to sleep.  I can’t pretend something doesn’t hurt when it does.  I can’t close my heart and cut connections just because I’m scared.  The heart stays open.

By some divine power, my heart is being kept open.  Waves of emotion pass through it.  I’m feeling the truth of painful feelings – what is it about?  I am seeing that some things are about relating, here and now, in present time.  How personalities mesh.  How chemistry is strengthened or weakened.

And I am seeing the trail of thoughts and feelings that are triggered by sharing myself closely with a lover, regardless of the present experience.  The trail keeps leading me back to the same yucky, muddy pond.  The same sadness, the same hurt.

I realized today that I am almost the same age that my mother was when my father left her for another woman.  There had already been infidelities, I’m sure, but the affair that made him leave was the beginning of a hellish time for my mother and my little sister and I.

The story of that challenging time is not what is important.  What matters is the little girl (age 11) who was left to sift through rubble and pick up broken pieces with her mother, for years.  What matters is that she hasn’t healed completely yet, and she is still, will always be, me.  Her healing is intrinsic to my own, as a woman and as a soul.

Little girls are not women.  I am not the only woman walking around with a scared, hurt, confused little girl inside of her.  And there are men, many men, with scared, hurt, confused little boys inside of them.  We are not bad for not being all grown-up and put together.  We do not suck for struggling.

Really, we are being handed keys to our own healing.  Whenever we are triggered, we are given an opportunity to trace it back to a place where we can have compassion for ourselves.  So often, our hurts are left over from our childhood.  We can hold space for that healing to occur in our hearts and minds, just by imagining ourselves as children, innocent and deserving of kindness and love.  (if you can’t imagine that, it’s ok! imagine yourself as a newborn baby.  you were innocent.  you still are, believe it or not.)

Now, we layer the cake of our experiences with the generations who have gone before us, and we see how very deep the suffering goes, how very deep the need for healing goes.

We are all feeling the sadness of world events right now.  There is a collective heaviness, a worn and tired dismay, and a protective urge to shield, to numb and to hide.  There is also a reactive urge for some to lash out and seek revenge.

But we just can’t keep doing that.

I can’t hide from my “daddy-issues” anymore.  It’s not very fun for my dating life.  I can’t just pretend something is working for me.  My temple, my body, is completely divine and anyone who enters my temple is blessed and also carries responsibility.  I deserve care and love and kindness.  I deserve truth and commitment and connection.  When I pretend like I don’t need those things, I feel like shit!

We, collectively, cannot hide from our issues.  We cannot hide from systemic racism and sexism.  We cannot hide from economic oppression.  We cannot hide from gun violence and fear-mongering and hate crimes.

These things are waking us up like an awful nightmare.  Instead of spinning around in debates and defenses, we can just feel this.  Eventually, we are going to feel this.

And then we can stop denying it and pretending.  We can stop blaming and victimizing.  We can stop stuffing our shame and our guilt with bullshit distractions.  We can just stop.

I have to heal my heart wounds in order to love freely and joyously.  Sometimes I feel underwater with the grief I’ve been carrying, but I keep riding the waves and perspective is granted, in big and small ways.  Spirit gives me the experiences I need to grow, and I feel held, even in my despair.

We have to heal our heart wounds.  We have to listen, really listen.

If we are able to act as loving support for others, we are experiencing a great gift.  AND – we still need to work on our own healing.  Martyrs are not going to save the world.  My loving brother Jesus has been misinterpreted again and again – and one very real way is through this idea of “suffering our way to heaven.”  Give me a break!

We are here to LOVE OURSELVES, FORGIVE OURSELVES AND HEAL OURSELVES.  From this space and this intention, we can offer our love, forgiveness and healing to this beautiful world.  The personal is still political, people.  Micro/Macro.  And if we don’t receive the grace that is constantly available to us if we but look within, we can’t offer it up, we can’t share it, we can’t BE IT.

You are the light, so be it.

There is no “other.”  Every great spiritual master has shared this message.

Your freedom is mine.  Your happiness, your love, your wisdom and your power are essential to the well-being of this planet.

And when you look around, those fellow humans you see, they are your family.

I love you.

Namaste.

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