Thoughts on Forty

I woke up inside my body and became aware – I am here – temporarily so, yes – but here I reside, for this precious now.  Here, in this life, this particular design.  This paper thin slice of the matrix pie.  This form, this flesh, this blood, these bones.  This skin and these eyes.  This mind calculating what it sees.  This heart-mind, prodding the eyes to see more.

The white flag of surrender.  Everything is the teacher, everything is guru.  Every possible incarnation exists and it is inextricable from Source and therefor inextricable from me, or you.

We are each vines from the eternal presence which is Source.  And we are each the other – one another – we are everything upon existence as our consciousness moves to match that frequency.

For you, as Source, have a deep desire to experience all of yourself – all of your potential – as the being that you are in this lifetime and every other possible incarnation of you.  These incarnations are infinite.

The infinite is one with eternity.  And eternity is a very long time, my friends.  A very-very-very long time (in the linear sense), in which the CHOICE to experience what it means to be EVERYTHING is our own free will.  From the point of view of Eternal Source Consciousness, there is nothing to lose, ever, in the grandest sense.

We are here for this moment, and truly we are conductors of Source in this time capsule which exists moment to moment.  We are also morphing into the formation of who we know ourselves to be from moment to moment.  In essence, we exist as geometric light rays, playing upon the sublime pattern of this universe.

The soul seeks expansion, and it is that which these light rays will respond to upon this planet (and every other possible planet within this universe and every other possible universe).  And if you ponder it for even a moment, you will have an experience of what another universe could possibly be, and you will know yourself as THAT.  It exists and you exist as it.

The sheer magnitude of this.

From this expanded awareness, that ALL exists and that we are the It or the Is-ness, we come back to our bodies and our breath, here and now.

We come back to this Earth, this grand experiment, this sacred home for life.  We come back to our own particular place upon Gaia, which we are choosing with our free will from moment to moment.

We chose this life.

Our soul came here with a mission.  Once awakened, the heart will hear the mission loud and clear – from moment to moment.  The mind may still get confused – let the heart guide it and help it relax so the dust of thoughts can settle and vision can become clear.

Use the channel of the 5th chakra at the throat center to help make the connection between 4th chakra (heart chakra) and 6th chakra (at 3rd eye), deep inside the brain.  Chanting mantra, singing and of course conscious breathing will all clear the 5th chakra.  Also, not wasting words, not complaining and not speaking ill of others (it happens, but we can tame these habits, as we tame the horses of the mind).

Sitting in silence is very often the best medicine.

Listening to the silence and opening the heart-mind to receive.


I am forty today, and still just learning to listen, still just learning to receive.

Forty years is but a baby’s breath to the Goddess, married to Source, who laughs from the deep belly of the Creative Wisdom, laughs as another one becomes teachable.



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